healing from your abuse

For so long I have remained silent,

Taking your abuse and becoming violent,

Against myself and those closest to me,

In order to keep your secrets under lock and key.

These secrets were buried deep within,

In a place dark, dirty, and hidden.

I began to go mad, wild, and crazy,

All you had done, made me feel so hazy.

Your punishment & abuse brought me to my knees.

I began to pray, cry, yell and eventually unfreeze.

For the lost girlhood, childhood, and youth,

Lost away in a sea of your stormy abuse.

All this pain taught me how to mend my broken heart.

I leaned on therapy, meditation, nature, and art.

I began to put myself back together - piece by piece,

By learning how to let go of this pain and release.

It took years, but now I can clearly see

That no one can make me feel unworthy.

I am a child of God and filled with love

And have the support from up above.

Your cruelty brought me home to me,

And damn it feels so good to be this free

Of the chains you used to tie me down.

Now I break free and pick up my crown.

Thank you for the lessons and the hard times,

Without them I wouldn’t have remembered I’m divine.

I now remember that you are love just like me.

And I hope one day you also are free.

Written by Amanda Durocher

2.10.23