mirror, mirror

Mirror, mirror 

On the wall,

Who’s the most dangerous

Of them all?

The face I’m shown

Gives me a fright!

It’s not who i expect,

Those from that night.

Instead reflected back

Is little old me.

I’m surprised at first.

How can this be?

But then I’m shown

All my violent thoughts,

The times I cut myself,

And the self-afflicted assaults.

The trauma I lived through

Burrowed into my core.

It took hold of my body

Letting fear in the backdoor.

And over the years,

The fear inside me grew,

It turned into evil thoughts,

Many of them taboo.

The thoughts grew in the dark

My own hidden shame

They knew my deepest secrets,

They’d taunt me by name.

Now that I’m older

And a little more wise,

I stare at myself

With tears in my eyes.

And ask this girl,

The one with so much pain,

If she can forgive me

For looking away.

Because for a long time

I was scared of this girl.

I labeled her a monster

Who could destroy my world.

But the real truth is,

She just wanted to be loved,

And know that she was seen

And to be given a hug.

So here in this moment

I ask her for forgiveness,

And I tell her I love her,

And as God as my witness.

I call her home to my heart.

Every painful memory too.

For she deserves to be held

And no longer feel blue.

And now we come together

And hold one another,

No longer afraid

Of hurting each other.

Mirror mirror on the wall

Thanks for showing me

Who’s the one I love

Most of all.

Written by Amanda Durocher

10.22.24