still grieving

I wrote this poem in honor of a friend who passed away. This poem helped me to process some of my grief, and is featured in episode 37: healing your grieving heart: feeling the feelings of grief.

Today I sit here and think of you,

And how much I loved you but you never knew,

That your laugh and smile would brighten my day,

And that you were so humble in every way.

I miss your physical presence and your snarky remarks,

And all those time we laughed, drank, and sang in the dark.

And that spending time with you felt safe like home,

You changed my life in ways you’ve never known.

Your death led me down a long and windy path

Filled with tears, sadness, and a whole lot of wrath.

You were one of a kind, a four leaf clover.

I still can get sad, that you’ll never come over

And see this new life I built brick by brick,

Because your death left me with no magic tricks,

Instead I learned to go within

And care for myself with affection,

And that life is a journey that can be so swift,

So I stop and remember that it’s really a gift.

This new found life is in honor of you,

And how I live each day like it’s brand new.

So today I remember you with a smile on my face,

And think to myself that by God’s grace

I got to know you for a brief time in my life,

And that I’ll see you again in the afterlife.

Thank you for being an incredible friend

You’ll live on in my heart until the very end.

Written by Amanda Durocher

9.14.22